New Skin

i just had A day. what a day. i've had a tooth ache for the past 3 days! It's driving me crazy. it is one of my wisdom teeth and the whole right cheek in my mouth hurts so bad. It might be my tooth or the cold ive had that is making my head hurt so bad lately either way ive been going to bed each night just hoping that in the morning it will be gone and it hasn't. :( not fun. Today i worked 9 hours straight at Hair City and it was long because of my head/tooth ache. Considering the pain, i really wish today was a slow day. I also never take medication, and i realized i can't go through another day like today without taking something for the pain. I am right in the middle of getting insurance for myself and the first thing i need to have done is a little pull and tug of the wisdom teeth for sure. yikes!

Uh, i also had a fun day today because i sliced open my hand really bad :(  As i sit here and drunk blog im eating some peanuts and chocolate chips (my favorite home made trail mix) and i keep thinking the peanuts smell bad, and then i remember that it's just the smell of my "liquid bandage" that i have gooped up all over my hand. I went straight to walgreens after work and got a big bottle. Its called "new skin" which is exactly what i need!!! i cut myself so much!! it's not fun.

My limbs are pretty sore right now, back and feet mainly but when shelby saw me try to open the oh-so-deserved beer and it fell over cause i only had one hand to use, she swooped in and helped me. What an amazing roomate i have, this blog entry is a shout out to her for sure. Shelby Schwitters, you're my hero. fo sho. As I sat on the couch all teary eyed and she brought me the salad i made for dinner and my half full beer and even my laptop charger so i could blog. :) She made my day. She even brought over my trail mix to the couch. she is amazing!!!!!

I am so tipsy right now its not even funny, i have one beer and my toes get fuzzy. I don't like to drink to often because i get so dang tipsy from uno beer. But i can't feel my tooth and thats cool.     dang,       i can't open my water bottle. and shelby went to bed! im hopeless.   hahaha

We watched Night in RodIsland last night. I know that's not the real name but i cant remember the real name. It was dumb. 

okay, serisously my hand is bleeding from trying to open the water bottle. Shelby when you read this i hope you are laughing hard. 

Wax night!!! coming soon!!  okay so shelby, im going to go public whether you like it or not. I have all this wax from my waxing classes during cosmo school, and well i got the great idea do do some pre-summer waxing around the bathing suit BOTTOM areas and shelby and i totally went to town friday night. it was so funny. we are so much fun, and i know it, i dont ever want to loose shelby as my roomy. Well, maybe for a man. But, we have a lot of fun in our underwear together. that is, a real friendship.

Sunday was great at church, my dad was teaching and he is my favorite teacher. He is so good. I sat with mom and it was a good time. His teaching was in Eziekel which is the book we are all going through. Dad reminded me that God does let us go through trails so we are better people, learning from life and having better character for it. Nathan spoke at the night service and it was super good too. Ive been very thankful for nathan and my dad, two people that make living in redding worth it. Nathan has been a huge influence on me and a connection to the outside world actually, like outside of redding. My dad has just made me remember how lucky i am to have great parents and to live by them is nice. 

I'll share my bit of moral knowledge now, and yes i still cannot open the water bottle but i can feel my toes again now. Counseling note of the day- "parents are humans." When i stopped expecting my parents to be anything other than that, i started to appreciate them and be thankful for them. And guess what, by doing that, they have been better and better parents to me. I was so sick of being disappointed by them until God told me that he was the only one who would be perfect towards me- unbiased, full of time, full of love-  GOD-not my parents or any other human. That changed my life. My parents were failing me and so i stopped expecting them to be perfect all the time. I still get my feelings hurt from time to time.. but i understand Gods unfailing presence to me all the time. Mom and Dad have flat out been to busy for me most of the time, they were very involved in taking care of all kinds of different kids and out of the loop with what i was doing. They didn't have the time to wait and hear what i was really trying to say. Im sure most kids have felt that way too.  Now as an adult i choose to not live at home so im not reminded of the lack of time and space for me, i am not bitter about it. Ive chosen God to fill that void and i will testify that, since then my parents and i have been so much closer. Their relationship with me finally has to be intentional or else its none existent b/c i don't live there. Today it's great. And i choose to "most" days ramble off in my head the reasons i am thankful about my family. When i stop thinking about myself, i see that they have positively affected so many other kids who don't have parents, and is all i was doing was sharing them. They never meant to ignore me. so ya, thats a shout out to JC for truly being the key to relationships. And i have healthy relationships because he gives me wisdom when i ask for it (James 1:2-6).  God didn't change my parents he changed me. Now i have the biggest heart for Orphans too! shoot, thats a whole nother blog. :)  Roomy - i know you can't get enough of my counsel and wisdom talks!! so you can always read my blog for even MORE from me. :) 

darn water bottle!